Hurts

Once again I turn around
And the ax comes swinging down
Cuts me down to the core
I don't think I can take any more

Didn't know it could hurt so much
My heart is raw to the touch
Raw and tender hurts so bad
Losing what I thought I had

It came right out from the blue
Turns out I didn't know you
Not a hint nor word was ever spoken
Nothing to indicate it would be broken

Time has past but not enough
I have to deal with too much stuff
How I feel and where to go
I really can't say cause I don't know

Sitting here crying again
Where did it all begin
My heart is screaming with mute voice
Live or die make the choice!

            Apr 17, 2000
            4:15 am